终于到了本专题的最后一个宫位，第十二宫难在我们的自我在抗争——存活与消融——是矛盾最突出的一个宫位也是最深不可测的宫位。
If the doors of perception were cleansed,everything would appear to man as it is, infinite /如果除去了感知的大门，一切对人们来说都会是无限的。
——William Blake
Commencing with the 1st house, growth has entailed distinguishing ourselves from the unbounded and universal matrix of life out of which we first emerged. However, as we have seen in the 11th, the distinction between ourselves and others is challenged by the understanding that each part of a system is related and interconnected with the other parts. Mystics and scientists alike tell us that we are not so separate after all. Who we are is influenced by others, and others are influenced by who we are. Our minds are linked and directly affected by one another. The notion that we exist as an isolated entity is quickly losing ground to a more collective or broader sense of self. In the 12th house, the twin processes of the dissolution of the individual ego and the merging with something greater than the self is felt and experienced, not via the mind or intellect as in the 11th, but with our heart and soul. Or as Christopher Fry puts it, ‘The human heart can go to the lengths of God.’
从第一宫开始，成长需要我们从最初的无界限和普通的生活环境中把自己区分出来。然而，正如我们在第十一宫中看到的，我们在理解自己和他人之间的区别上受到了挑战：系统的每一部分都与其它部分相关并相互作用。神秘学和科学家告诉我们，我们并没有那么孤立。我们的自我认知受到他人的影响，同样的他人也受到我们的影响。我们的思想有着相互间的联系，并且直接影响到彼此。我们作为一个孤立存在的个体的观念正在迅速失去对更集体或更广泛自我的感知。在第十二宫里，个体自我的瓦解和与比自我更伟大的事物的融合的这两个过程是靠感觉和体验的——而不是通过类似第十一宫的头脑或智力——是通过我们的心脏和灵魂。或者正如Christopher Fry所说，“人类的心可以达到上帝的高度”。
The poet Walter de la Mare writes that ‘our dreams are tales told in a dim Eden.’ On its most underlying level, the 12th house, naturally associated with watery Pisces and the planet Neptune, represents the urge for dissolution which exists in each of us – the yearning to return to the undifferentiated waters of the womb, to the original state of unity. Freud, Jung, Piaget, Klein and a host of other modern psychologists agree that the infant’s first structure of consciousness is presubject/object, ignorant of boundaries, space and time. Early memories cut the most deeply. On some deep level, every individual intuits that his or her innermost nature is unbounded, infinite and eternal. The rediscovery of this wholeness is our greatest need and want. From a reductionist psychology perspective, the desire to reconnect with the lost sense of original wholeness can be understood as a regression back to the pre-birth state; but in spiritual terms, this same urge translates into a mystical longing for union with our source and a direct experience of being part of something greater than ourselves. It is a kind of divine homesickness.
诗人Walter de la Mare写道“我们的梦想是朦胧的伊甸园里讲述的故事”。第十二宫最基本含义是与水象的双鱼座和海王星有关，其代表了我们每个人对消融的渴望——渴望回到子宫的未分化水域，回到最初的整体状态。弗洛伊德、荣格、皮亚杰、克莱因和许多其他现代心理学家一致认为，婴儿的第一意识构建是主体/客体，对边界、空间和时间毫无觉知。早期的记忆最深刻。在某种深层次上，每个人都直觉地认为内心深处的本性是无界的、无限的和永恒的。重新发现这种整体性是我们最大的需求和欲望。从还原主义心理学的角度看，与失去的原始整体感重新连接的欲望可以理解为回归到出生前的状态；但在精神方面，同样的冲动却转化为一种神秘的渴望：与我们的起源相结合，并获得一种直接的体验，成为比我们自己更伟大事物的一部分。这是一种神圣的思乡之情。
In one respect, the prospect of a return to that state sounds blissful, ecstatic and serenely peaceful. And yet, something else in us – the ego’s desire to preserve itself and the fear of its own demise – contends with this longing. The ego has fought hard to win a slice of life for itself: why should it relinquish this? In the glyph of Pisces, the sign associated with the 12th house, two fishes swim in opposite directions. Human beings are faced with a fundamental dilemma, with two contrasting pulls. Each person wants to lose a sense of isolation and transcend his or her individual separateness and yet each person is terrified of disintegration and dreads the loss of the separate self. This existential double bind – wanting wholeness and yet fearing and resisting it – is the major predicament of the 12th house.
从某方面来说，回到那种状态似乎是幸福的、欣喜若狂的和安详的。然而，我们还有别的东西——自我保护的欲望和对自身灭亡的恐惧——与这种渴望格格不入。自我一直在努力地为自己赢得一丝希望：它为什么要放弃呢？在双鱼座的图形中，第十二宫的先天黄道星座，两条鱼游径的方向相反。人类面临一个根本性的困境，遭遇两个迥然不同的拉力。每个人都想丧失孤立感，超越个人的分离，但每个人都害怕消融，害怕失去被分离的自我。因而这样的双重束缚——渴望整体性，同时又害怕并抗拒它——是第十二宫的主要困境。
Because the dissolution of the ego-identity is so frightening, people seek substitute gratifications in an attempt to satisfy the yearning for self-transcendence. One strategy for reconnecting to unity is through sex and love: ‘If I am loved, held or included, then I go beyond my separateness.’ Another ploy to regain a lost sense of omnipotence and omnipresence is through wielding power and prestige: ‘If I can extend my territory of influence over more and more things, then the rest of life is connected to me.’ Immersion in alcohol or drugs is another way to break down boundaries and rigidities. Suicidal urges and various other forms of self-destructive behaviour often cloak the desire to return to a more blissful state of non-differentiated being. Others seek transcendence more directly through meditation, prayer and devotion to God. The 12th house may raise any of these issues.
瓦解自我认同的是如此的可怕，人们寻求可替代的满足感，试图满足对自我超越的渴望。重新整合的一个途径是性和爱：“如果我被爱着，被拥有着或被包容着，那么我就不会孤独。”另一种重获无限力量和无限存在感的策略是通过权力和威望：“如果我能将我的影响力扩大到越来越多的事物上，那么生活中其余的事物就与我紧密相连。” 沉溺于酒精或毒品是打破界限和僵化的另一种方式。自杀的冲动和各种其他形式的自我毁灭，往往掩盖了回到一种无差别存在的幸福状态的愿望。还有人通过冥想、祈祷和对神的奉献来更直接地寻求超越。第十二宫会引发以上的任何一种情况。
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